We Are Family

Last night, I realized I had to make my relationship with my sister work. Emily is my older sister, and through so much I need her to help me. I told her that I needed help, and there are things that I can't stop doing or I can't do without her help. Emily agreed to be sisters again, and I am very happy. She said that I am right, and she just over-reacted and should have helped me from the start. I know she should have, and I am very happy that she is going to by my big sister again! It's back to just us again. We are Family once again!

There's me and Emily. Oddly, I am taller than her there. Growth spurt or something, because I am shorter than her. Well, finally, We Are Family!

A Way To Forget

So, I went to some girls' house who Maya says listen to what you have to say. So, I needed a friend after James neglecting me for a while. So, I wanted to talk to the girl named Naylyn. Then, Naylyn, Maya and I spoke for a while. Then, Paytan and her friend Meadow came and they said they wanted to play with us. Meadow kept on saying that she knew Maya was Maya from Girl Meets World. She didn't accuse me of being me from The Next Step. So, we had to play creatures. I made up a character named Riley. Sounds normal, right? Well, this Riley was the complete opposite of me. She was a hobo who lived on the street, accused of having a seizure. Yes, very odd. Everybody always tried to turn Riley into a mental hospital. Then my mom called me in, ruining the fun. That was my night. It was a great night to forget all about James and everything else that went on.

A Feeling I Never Thought I'd Feel... Ever

Maya, her friend Rowan, Emily, Hunter, James and I all went to get slurpies. We searched for pop bottles with our names on them, and James found one that said "Jiley- The Next Step" on it. He bought it, and said he's going to keep it. That made me feel... special. So, when everybody began leaving, James said goodbye to me and he hugged me. I never have felt him hug me in forever it seems. I really miss him hugging me, and it feeling normal. When he left, I just thought, "I wish this felt normal. Like it happens everyday." But, it doesn't. James hugging me doesn't feel normal. It feels so different, like it never happens. I just really miss when James hugging, and touching me felt normal. I wish last night with Rowan I would have hugged him when I had the chance to. I wish I had done what I now regret not doing.

I wish this was normal. I wish this is what I was used to. I wish this is what I felt I had. This is what  I got, I'd be so lucky. It would be unimaginable. I wish James and I were normal. I wish Jiley felt real, and like it happened everyday. Where did it go? Where did everybody go? Where did James who loved me and hugged me go? I haven't felt this way in a while. As in, I never have been hugged by him in a while. But, I've never felt the way I do right now from him. I've never felt neglected and unloved by him. Never. This may have changed everything...

Unlove You

I have a new song. Everybody's heard it before, and it's Unlove You by Elise Estrada. You've all heard it before, so.... yeah. Here it is, just don't purposely listen to it.

Yeah, do not listen to this song purposely. I know if you play it or not. So, if you listen to it while it's on the radio and I cry out, "My song!" then listen to it. But if you don't have to, DON'T.

Call Myself Riley

Today, my cousin, Emily and I are going on a train to go and visit some people to hyave lunch with them, and then go to the beach with my mom's friend who is bringing her son who is 6. Seems like a great day, right? Well, one issue, the little boy's name is Riley. This will be weird, and I hate meeting people with my name. It's like, "Hey, Riley!" Maya calls. And then who answers? What if she is talking to him? Then I'll feel like... well I'll feel bad. It's like, no I'm Riley! I am Riley! I'm looking forward to seeing my mom's friend Carolyn again, just not really the kid. He's a good kid, but I don't want to call him Riley. I wish she was bringing the girls, instead. Hayley and Madison, no issue there. Riley, yeah that's going to be an issue! I want to go on a train. It will be fun! So, half good half bad.

How It All Ended (Season 2)

Just as I walked in to tell James the great news that we won, but I see him and Beth kissing. I am immediately am brought to tears and I am heartbroken. I run away crying, questioning me and James' relationship. After seeing James and Beth kiss, I tell Emily in Culture Shock. When James shows up, I ask him if anything weird went on. He denied everything. I know he is lying, so I walk away angrily. James then tells Beth he can't do the duet with her for my sake. Later, James performs a dance for me to show me he likes me, and I am the only one. It gets to me at first, but when Beth walks in, it takes me back to everything I was upset about in the first place. I walk away, breaking up with James.

After Beth and James being placed 2nd place in the competition, I am shocked to learn that he still went to the competition with her. Later, we refuse to practice our duet together and Kate questions us and said we need time to work it out. Later in Culture Shock, I struggle to talk to James and I do it. I tap him on the back and just congradulate him on the competition with Beth. Although I was still very mad at him, I almost missed him. Weeks later, James and I struggle to reherse our duet and Miss Kate feels we have no chemistry in it. Meanwhile, Emily talks to me in Culture Shock telling me I should move on from James. At Culture Shock, I find out James and Beth are on a date so Michelle, Amanda, and Stephanie try to set me up with Charlie. Although I was awful at flirting, Charlie asked me out. I said I can't make it because of duet practice with James. I stay at A-Troupe waiting for James for a while and I call him, but he didn't answer. I gave up and went on the date with Charlie and it didn't go too well. Later that week, Giselle and Thalia watch James and I rehearse our terrible duet, and say we need help. They challenge us for the duet and James and I are in shock. Eventually, we realize that we can't do the duet, and fighting for each other is not worth it anymore. We then leave, and I give the duet to Giselle and Thalia. Days later, Giselle and Thalia tell James and I that the challenge was fake and none of us are convinced to get the duet back. Later on, James comes and walks home with me. He tries to get back with me, and asks what happened to us. I said we both know how it happened. I walked away, leaving James heartbroken. In Game On, James and I talk about our relationship and I say we'll see for him and I getting back together. James knows, when I saw we'll see, I mean yes. And that's where it all left off...

How We Became Official (Season 1.5)

SEASON 1:

It was October 18th 2013, when we decided to go on a date. It was unintended, but he got a B+ on his math test for me, and that's all that mattered. I affirmed him we'd go on a date, so we did. As a matter of fact, it was great night. In the beginning, I didn't think it was very romantic. It turned out to be the best date ever. He knew how much I wanted to travel the world, so he got food from all over the world and he had to stamp my passport everytime we went to get food from somewhere else. I had this idea planned of what a perfect date should look like. As far as first dates go, this one was pretty perfect.

So then October 25th came along. That was the day I was confused. I was indignantly confused, I was puzzled confused. We hadn't spoken since the date, and I wanted to know if we were dating or not. I went to Emily for help. She told me just ask him. I was confused then because, I mean, wouldn't that be a little bit... scary. For me? She said that guys like it when you be straight forward. I later went to James at the studio and pulled him aside. "Are we in a relationship?" I asked. "Did you just ask me that?" James said and kind of began laughing. "I'm being serious." I said. "Do you wanna be?" He asked. "I wouldn't be asking if I didn't want to." I told him. "Is that a yes?!" He wondered. I nodded. "Just wait... wait a sec!" He did a huge flip across the entire studio. He was trying to get that flip for weeks, and he just did it for me. Everyone began calling us Jiley after Regionals. It was kinda cute, but of course I preferred Riley. Eventually, we traveled to Elite to get Emily back after joining. James has dated every girl. He waved at Amanda who waved first, and I slapped him. I confessed that it was hard dating someone who's dated so many girls before. Not because I'm jealous, because.... just because he is saying hello to every girl that passes by. Can I shout annoying, or what? One Regionals hit, I messed up on stage. Everybody told me that it wasn't my fauly, and so did James. They told me not to do that to myself, because it wasn't my fault. Of course, I knew it was my fault but I let it slip. We landed on the Wild Card and we won Regionals. James and I kissed on stage. In front of EVERYBODY and Beth.

SEASON 2:
After Regionals, there was an after party. I spoke with James a lot. I also became jealous that Beth was flirting with James. "Do you ever notice that Beth looks at you a lot?" I asked him. "No. I don't see it." James said. Soon enough, auditions for the duet is held. Everyone insists that Eldon and Michelle do it because they did it at Regionals. Eldon is against the idea, so James incourages him to go for the solo. Many groups then audition for the duet. Just as James and I finish, he goes to studio B to practice his duet with Beth. After the auditions, the duet is given to James and I. I go to tell James that we won the duet, and then....

Why Be Terrified?

Wild Rapids Waterslide, the biggest waterslide of Toronto. Emily, Maya and I went today. It is huge, and let's just say I got scared badly sometimes. Let me just tell the story. So, we arrived and we went on a few slides at first. Then soon enough we went to get something to eat. I got some amazing fries, and Maya got a hotdog. James, Eldon, and West showed up to eat with us. We all got icecream, and James licked mine, which in my eyes was both cute and very disrespectful. Then, West and James decided to spend some time with us. So, we spent some time with them. Emily and I had a competition of who could stay on a tube with the annoying person longest. I was with James, and Emily was with West. Eldon and Maya were our coaches. They had to keep an eye on us to make sure that we didn't get off and pretend we didn't spend time with each other. So, Eldon came with James and I and Maya coached Emily and West. James and I basically failed the first moment. James dunked me off the tube, and accidently fell with me. We fell straight underwater and we hit our legs against the slide SO hard. Obviously, by the end West and Emily won because they didn't fall like that. Then, we went to the sidewinder which is like a big half pipe ramp. We take tubes down. James terrified me on that thing. How that began was he forgot his own tube, so he had to tube with me. He grabbed on to me, but he did splash and threaten to dunk me off. So, we began going like that every time. Also for the sidewinder, Emily and I betted 50 dollars that if I scream, I owe her 50 dollars and if I don't, she owes me 50 dollars. Maya and I then went on the slide with such a long line, but it was worth the wait. We made fun of each other. She said I was going to marry James, and I said she was going to marry Farkle Minkus, the most annoying kid she knows. Then, we did much more on the slides, and then my mom and uncle bought us french fries and we headed home! Wild Rapids trip, and it was great.

Hard To Believe

My younger cousin Maya is..... just so Maya. Let me recap Maya Hart. She is 14 years old, going to Grade 9, the grade I was previously in. Maya is sorta a tomboy, and she knows nothing about dance. What!!?? How are we even related? It's hard to believe. She said ballerinas and dancers are the same thing. No they aren't. Wow, not my cousin, barely. HARD TO BELIEVE!

Camp Belwood Adventure!

As you all know, I've been looking forward to something! Something totally great! Emily, my cousin Maya, and I all go to a camp. It's called Camp Belwood. The camp is on a lake, which I find pretty cool. Last year, Emily and I went and it was great. This year because were living with our younger cousin Maya, we have to take her as well. She's a nice girl, but she is kind of a tomboy. You don't want to mess with her. It's the wrong thing to do. Well, we take her this summer again. She's been there with us a few times, and who knows how many times without us. She's never really spoken of the camp that much. Anyway, I think everybody from The Next Step is attending this year. Once I spoke of it to everybody, they were immediately interested in coming. The idea was brought to Kate, and now I've gotten everyone into this. Now, were all attending and Amanda is going too. Hopefully, I just don't end up in her cabin. That'd ruin my trip, because she knows I hate her. After Emily told me about her at Elite, it's been mad. Though, with Emily shunning me lately I hope I don't wound up in her cabin, either. So, I hope I'm with Chloe or Giselle who'd never be rude to me, through nothing. Well, Camp Belwood here I come!

A Great Two New Songs

So, I have 2 new songs for my playlist. One I am not going to dare to name for reasons you don't need to know, unless you've viewed my pages in which case you know what I'm speaking of, but the other one is amazing aswell. It is called Parachute by Cheryl Cole and the other one.... I can say the band, but I'd rather not give any clues. Let's just say Emily's very disappointed. Well, my new songs. Amazing.

Big Ticket Summer 2014

So, we've already played some shows for Big Ticket Summer 2014 and it's amazing. I love seeing all of the fans faces lighting up and screaming. It's so nice. The Next Step hosted last year because we won Regionals and they thought it would be good for us to host. This year, Austin and Ally's Calum Worthy is hosting. He is so funny and I'm so happy for him. I watch The Coppertop Flop Show sometimes.

This is last Summer of 2013's concert. It was great that year and it will be just as great this year! I'm excited to keep playing shows for the fans!

Summer Vacation!

It's finally Summer Vacation and I'm pumped! We get a break from dancing so much just to go and chill and have fun! I can't wait for everything I am planning to do this Summer. It's going to be great and I can tell! Summer is a great season that I'm 100% pumped for!

The Next Step Is Back!

So, on June 30th, they began playing The Next Step back on family daily. Yay! But it's July 4th and here comes Season 2.5! Yes! I'm totally excited to have Season 2.5 aired soon! This is going to be a good summer. I am playing a lot of Big Ticket Summer shows and I'll rarely have time to watch The Next Step, but I will get some time in.