Tornado In Toronto

Okay, it is 17 degrees and there is a tornado warning. It's pretty bad. I'm terrified of tornados and have been since I was 12 and USA had a tornado warning, then I watched a video of a tornado and was scared of them ever since. I am terrified right now! What if I die of a tornado today? I'm so scared. This is our fourth tornado of the season. I'm really scared and I just want... someone to protect me and tell me I'm okay through this.

Future: Fight For Myself

I'm trying to turn this all around. I have to pick myself up and go on and move on from my past. Not James. But my general past. I need to learn, Season 1 is over and so is Season 1.5 and so is Season 2, I need to get past that and stop putting all of this presure on myself to go back to that. I can't. I wish I could. But it's not going to happen. This is how it ends. I didn't expect it, but this is how it ends. This is how we all end. All of this life presure is off of me and I'm 100% fine. FINE. I'm going to be like I was in Season 1 and this is something I can control, I'm going to fight for myself more than often. Yes, James fights for me, but he shouldn't have to be the only one fighting for me. I can fight too and I will. Fighting for myself might be hard, but it's going to be worth it in the end when it's only me left and I already know how to fight for myself from this experience now. I know I need to learn my differences and how to do more on my own. I know how to do a lot but I need to know how to do more to fight for myself. I'm trying to leave my mistakes behind and know that if I can fight for myslef, I can live my future better. I know what I need to do to fight for myself. Yeah, James can somewhat fight for me now, but I can do something about this too. I need to pick myself up and know how to go on by myself once A-Troupe is done and I'm back on my own weight and feet. I don't need anyone to pick me up and help me trail along through life, why can't I just do that myself? Of course, hearing that James is going to fight for me is... all I wanted to hear, but I need to do some of this on my own too. I can't stay low, I have to leave my mistakes from the past away. I need to pick myself up and realize, I need to learn before I have nowhere to lean, no where to go. Nothing. I have to learn myself. I know I need to do this by myself and leave my mistakes behind.

Look at me there. I was being voted off E-Girls right before my eyes and it was for doing the right thing. You know what I did after that? I fought for myself. I learned to make it through on my own. I learned how to do things and get through without Emily and the E-Girls. I have to learn with this sooner or later. Or else I'll be stuck in that phase where I don't know what to do anymore. I have to learn to live without support of everyone else. Yes, I'll know The Next Step for a while longer and I have, but soon I wont. Soon, we'll all go off and get our own jobs alone. So, I don't have forever. Time goes by faster than you really think. I will lean on James for things for now, but soon I'll need to lean on myself and realize, "Riley, you have to do this." Not, James or Emily or someone is fighting for me, so I have nothing to lean on but them. Soon, I'll need to lean on myself.

I had troubles leaning on myself at points, but after Emily came and hugged me, I realized all I have left is myself so that is who I'll lean on. Me. I had to lean on myself and rely on myself to get through my hard life. Now, everything is regular again, but I will need this post to help me soon. I'll one day remember the post "Future: Fight For Myself" and go back to this and realize. This may seem dumb, but if the future Riley is reading this one day, I want to let you know that you have to go on and you need to pick yourself up and fight for yourself. You have no choice now. You have to learn to do things by yourself, please take this advice.

FOR FUTURE ME.

Alice

My song Alice my Avril Lavigne has a meaning to it too. The song name has nothing to do with it. It is trying to say that you need to try and get by and survive. It says, "When the world is crashing down, when I fall and hit the ground, I will turn myself around." That's what I will try and do. I'll try and turn myself around. It says, "Is This Real? Is This Pretend?" Is it? I'm wondering too. Is this real, is this pretend?

Cold As You

Cold As You is my song by Taylor Swift. It says an appealing line saying, "I start a fight, because I need something." It is saying I need a fight because I need something. It says what a shame when an ending to a perfect day. "Now that I sit here thinking it through, I realize, I've never been anywhere cold as you." It says, "You never ever gave a thing honey, but I cried cried for you. I know you wouldn't tell anybody if I died, died for you."

Say Something

Say Something's message appeals to me every single word. It says say something I'm giving up on you. That's me alright. It says, "I'm feeling so small, it was over my head, I know nothing at all." Well, maybe 1 line makes no sense. It says, 'I will stumble and fall.' And we all stumble and fall. One message I say that it doesn't is, I will stumble and fall but I'll pick myself back up. It says the most appealing line yet that says, "Your the one that I loved, and I'm saying goodbye." Well, truthfully, I am. I might have to let go of everything. I might.

Drive By

My song Drive By says that 1 line that caused me to add this to my playlist. It says, "Oh I swear to you, I'll be there for you." That appeals to Season 1.5 me and beginning of season 2. Now, it just makes me wonder, do you swear you'll be there for me anymore? Drive By is a good song still, even though the relations are complicated.

Now Or Never

Now Or Never is the song by family channel that they dedicated all to Season 1 me. It's saying if you want to give something a chance and make it last, do it. It says we can't keep walking in circles. It says you have to swear it's now or never. It says don't you cry, all you have to do is try. Season 1 me can relate. Not me now. Moving on.

Complicated

My song Complicated by Avril Lavigne has a message too. It says why do you have to go and make everything complicated? I can wonder that too. It says, your talking to me but you've become somebody else. That line appeals to me. You've become somebody else. This song is about someone changing in front of your eyes into somebody else. And it says, "Your trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me." That line doesn't appeal to me as much. The meaning is someone is changing who they are and what they do and they turn it all complicated. That is somewhat appealing to me. Not as much as it should.

Don't Stay Low

Okay, I know that everything in my life is going to wreck before my eyes, but something I'm telling myself is don't stay low. My songs have inspiration and I can follow those meanings. My song Don't Stay Low says don't stay low and I wont. I'm not going to stay low, I'll pick myself up and go on.

Sad, Funny, Stressful, Weird, Awkward Moments

Okay, sometimes I get this weird thing when I listen to a certain song, I think about so many things and then I suddenly feel in that mood. Sometimes it's creepy, sometimes happy, sometimes funny, stressful, awkward and last night it was sad. I was sad after listening to Dont Stay Low and Every Time. I got sad. It was odd? Yeah, okay. Now I've created that awkward moment?

While I Had The Chance

Sometimes, I really regret things. Like, when James came to me earlier like 15 minutes ago. He rubbed my back. After my mom kind of yelled at me and Emily helped her, I began crying and I sat in my room wishing I would have hugged James so tightly while I had the chance to. I wish I talked to him. I wish I hugged him and I wish that I just... I just wish I did something when I could have.

I wish I would have held his hands, and looked him in the eyes how I did there. How I just did. How I wasn't under stress, I just loved him. I wish I was like that. I do things while I have the chance. I wish I did. While I had the chance, why didn't I do it? Now I'm crying because I didn't. Well, mostly that. I just wish I could run into James's arms and hug him for the rest of my life.

Obsessive Girl!

So, on YouTube there is this girl named Stephanie (well she said she is pretending she is Stephanie) who commented me. She is crazy nuts, but I love her! She is amazing. Here is her mesage to me.

OMG I LOVE U SOO MUCH UR SO KOOL I NEVER MISSED AN EPISODE OF THE NEXT STEP I WATCHED EVERY EPISODE AND KNOW ALL THE SONG LYRICS EVEN THE RAP FROM STANDUP(THE THEME SONG) I REALLY LOVE THE DRAMA HUNTMILY AND JILEY,I HAVE THE NEXT STEP POSTERS ON MY WALL EVERYWHERE TOO BAD EMILY GOT EVERY ONE TO DISLIKE HER AGAIN BUT IT WILL ALL BE WORTH IT IN THE END, CAN U POST A QUESTION AND ANSWER VIDEO, WHATS UR FAVORITE FIND OF DANCE MOVE, WHOS UR BEST FRIEND IN THE NEXT STEP AND FROM THE SHOW OUTSIDE OF THE NEXT STEP, WHAT IS UR FAVORITE DANCEWHERE FROM THE NEXT STEP U WHORE ON THE SHOW, WHATS UR FAVORITE EPISODE FROM SEASON 1,1.5 AND 2, WHATS UR FAV SONG FROM THE NEXT STEP, DO U LIKE THE CHARACTER U PLAY FROM TNS, ANY CRUSHES FROM THE SHOW, WHATS UR FAV COLOUR AND FOOD, WHATS UR FAV DESSERT, HOW DID U REACT WHEN U FOUND OUT U WERE PLAYING RILEY, DO U LIKE EMILY PRETENTING TO BE UR SISTER FROM THE SHOW, WOULD U RATHER BE THE OLDER OR YOUNGER SISTER,EVEN THOUGH IN THE SHOW UR YOUNGER,DO U REALLY IN REALITY LIKE BRITER BRITEST? PLEASE ASAP ANSWER THESE ~CURIOUS/STEPHANIE OH YEAH I ALSO TOOK ALEXANDRA BEATONS LAST NAME AND STEPHANIES FAKE NAME FROM THE SHOW INTO MY USERNAME THAT HOW MUCH I LOVE THE NEXT STEP~FROM THE NEXT STEPS BIGGEST FAN LOVE UUUU AND THE SHOW OH YEAH DID U FEEL NERVOUS WHEN U MESSED UP AT REGIONALS TO, AND R U REALLY NERVOUS IN REAL LIFE KIND OF THE WAY RILEY IF ON THE SHOW BYE

Yup, there it is. Yikes huh!

Everyday Is Special Cause Of You

Message To A Person Who Is Special:
I may not know you yet, but I'll meet you.

There is a song in my playlist called Everyday. The main line in that song and the message is Everyday Is Special Cause Of You. It also says every dream you dream can really come true. And I believe it can. I know that everyday is special because of you. I live through everyday, because someone told me I'm worth it. Someone said your waiting for me. Someone said I'm loved. Everyday I live for you. I live because your here with me. I live because I have you in my life. I know I'm going to spend life with you because your wonderful and trustworthy. Your amazing and keep me up everyday when I'm down. Thank you for that. Thank you for being my friend, always. Even if I never meet you, I know your out there. Someone special who loves me and will give me what I deserve. This is I don't deserve. Thank you for telling me I dont deserve this because I know I dont. Thank you. Everyday is special cause of you!

No More Time

Okay, I read the episode list and I am astonished. Okay, so first of all, I get my duet back and I actually am trustworthy. Then, Beth goes through exactly what I did in the episode What I'll Do. Beth saw James and I kiss and she ran off crying. She goes through the same thing. She deserves it though.

We Can Do It Better

Lately, I've been thinking about something on my mind. You all know how Giselle and Thalia have overcame James and I for the Nationals duet? Well, I'm playing this out differently. I am planning to re-claim it. I think that we can do it better than Giselle and Thalia. James and I can take us to the next round of Nationals. At Regionals, the focus was Eldon and Michelle. Nationals was supposed to focus on James and I. Well, now it can't and I am going to earn that title at Nationals back. Regionals was a big deal, but Nationals is huge. Regionals was only to take us to Nationals. Now being close to Nationals, I remember being offered the duet and knowing I'm title with James. Now, I've given that up and I know we can do it better this time.

October 25 2013

So, on October 25 is when James and I began dating. It was a special day. It was almost halloween and I got to be Trick Or Treating knowing, I am with James. I was so happy that day and so was James. I am glad I remember that day. Our 1 year anniversary will be in October. So, we had a relationship for 6 months. We broke up in April. Well, April 4 to be exact. A day after my birthday! A day after I turned 15, he broke up with me. I just remembered that. Emily told me that I got to spend a birthday with him, and then we were timeless. TIMELESS! Well, were back now and were going to celebrate our anniversary this October.

Hair Do!

So, I was just scrolling through my subscribtions when I saw that Jiley Thenextstep subscribed me. She/he had a background of me, James, and Kate together, and man is my hair... odd. It's a blonde brown! It's so cute though. I love it! Also, I have a new profile picture on Google+ and Blogger.

My new profile photo on Blogger.

That is my weird blonde brown hair. Weird! And look at Kate and James! Haha! How rediculous!

and my new profile picture. I love this one!

I Was 99% Wrong

Well, you all read my last post, right? If not, go do so now or this wont make any sense whatsoever. Okay, if you have read it, stay. Listen. So, last night at 10:00, I realized that I forgot something at the studio. When I was just about to walk out, James came in. "Why are you here?" I asked. "Forgot something." He said. "Forgot something." I said. Awkward! Just like Jessie said, come on Jessie pick your moments. Well, now come on Riley pick your moments! Then, I was just about to leave when James stopped me. "Remember what I said last night? You said you wanted to talk about it." I began stuttering to talk. I didn't know what to say. Then, James just hugged me. Okay? I thought. But at the same time I was kind of happy? Then, I finally began talking. "I thought a lot about this last night. In fact, all night which is...?" I said. "9 and a half hours." James said. I was happy he got a math question right. "Yeah. 9 hours. And..." I said. I barely talked. I was nervous. Then I thought, "why should I be nervous? I'll either turn him down or not. So, he should be nervous if anyone is. But he's James. He wasn't nervous at Nationals when everyone was sweating and wet and he was walking around cool." So, I finally said. "I thought I could give "us" another chance." James was the second happiest I've ever seen him. Or third. First and second definitely debate over winning Regionals and the first time getting me to be his girlfriend. Totally. Anyways, he picked me up and spun me around so much. He was happy. Then, his Aunt Kathy called and said, "Mommy misses you." And I mocked him for that. Well, I am pretty happy right now. Aside of school. Otherwise, I'm happy and I'll give anything to keep this like the way it is. He said he'll hang out with me all after school, but I kinda doubt it. I will probably being Emily's shoulder to cry on. That is 99% of my life. Emily. Oh well. Or, I might be cleaning the dishes for mom or watching episodes and yacking to the online YouTubers. That's my life. Interesting? Not much. Hopefully James does show up, but I highly doubt it. Okay, maybe middle doubt, but it's still a doubt. Even a low doubt is a high doubt. It's still a doubt. By James coming, I'll up my game and effort of... well life.

Not Meant For It

I just looked at the time. 9:22. Not 10:22, 9:22. It's past 9:15. Maybe fate is telling me, Jiley is just not meant to be. Fate always tells the truth. Were not meant for it. Fighting for each other, is that going to happen? I know I am being overdramatic over nothing. But it's not the fact he didn't show up. It is the fact that by him not showing up, I had more time to think and realize things and work myself out. How did this happen? What did I do to deserve this? Well, I guess we'll have to see what gets put out after this heck of a night. Just wait. We'll see what happens next....

920 Almost 1000

I'm so happy that Hazy Shade Of Winter part 1/2 by me has 920 views! Yipee! I'm totally happy!

One Last Shot

Lat night Emily, James and I were watching Good Luck Charlie episode Charlie Is 2. So, while watching, after James heard Charlie the baby, say in a baby voice, "Gurgle circle," James became obsessed with saying it. He kept saying it to irritate me and he also kept calling me babe. Do not call me babe! That just gets to me. Also, James needs help on math... AGAIN! Wow! Anyway, Emily was with us to until she began singing along to a song about a pug dog with everyone and they just stared at her blankly and bitterly. She stood up. I looked into her eyes and saw she was sad. She ran off. I first sat guiltily until everyone continued singing. Then, after everything, James loaded the twins on his back and to the door to head home. I was cleaning up when James came and sat down. "Listen Riley," he began. I kept cleaning, but James has no idea how much I wanted to sit down and listen to whatever he had to say. Then, finally I sat down when James kind of nudged me and signaled me to sit, so I did. Then he said, "I want to be with you again." Well, something like that. I don't remember. "Please Riley! I'm sorry for Gurgle Circle," he said in the baby Charlie voice. Then I just looked at him seriously. He got serious. I was surprised to see him so serious. "I don't know." I said. I waited about 7-8 seconds. "Maybe we'll talk about this tomorrow?" I asked. More like demanding. Well, I spent all night thinking on this. Should I do it? I plan on inviting James over tonight at like 9:15, no it's not 10. My blog is screwed. Well, I'll invite him unless he doesn't come first. He does that often. So, I want to tell him the answer I chose. Because my mind has figured things out. And my answer is

Miracles Spread!

Okay, so you all know how I can walk better now. It's such a miracle. My mom took me to the doctor and they said it's not broken. It was just fractured really badly. Now, I'm fine. My mom is still thinking about getting crutches, but I might not. I definently don't need a wheel chair. I am still attending rehearsals. I am going to watch everyone. I still need to memorize the Nationals routine. Well, I'm glad my miracle has come true. I told Emily too. She's soooo happy! My mother called Miss Kate and told her. Kate is so happy. Most of the A-Troupe dancers know. They had rehearsals at 3:00-5:30 and Kate broke the news to everyone. She said everyone jumped in joy and was so happy. My miracle was spread!

Creepier Then I Thought

Holy man! I just was going to listen to my new song, Alice by Avril Lavigne. The beginning music of that song is so scary! It just gives me shivers and goosebumps. It kind of freaks me out. I just had to mention that. Freaky. Oh, and once you get further into the song, it sounds like the average song. Nope, not the beginning. Just terrifying!

My Two New Songs

I have 2 new songs. Alice by Avril Lavigne and Complicated by Avril Lavigne. Only one found on my video.

It's A Miracle!

I woke up this morning feeling great! Truthfully, feeling! Yes! I got up and I could kind of walk again! Miracle! I have to really limp though. I've spent most of this day walking with a limp! I don't need a wheel chair. It's like how it was before Amanda broke it. And, I didn't break it. I sprained it or fractured it. Something like that. But I'm okay!

Just As I Thought Part 3 (Apparently)

Okay, so last night we had rehearsals. Amanda was trying to let Kate know about my leg by having me dance the Nationals routine for Miss Kate. I tried doing it until I collapsed to the ground. I was crying when James came and hugged me. Miss Kate told Emily to call 911. They called and when the showed up, I was lifted on to the stretcher and later I was taken to the hospital to be claimed of a broken leg. Now, I have to use a wheel chair until Monday and I'm on crutches until July 29th. I am having half of my Summer on crutches, and I can't dance. Great way to spend my Summer (not). Well, Just As I Thought is now 100% concluded.

Just As I Thought Part 2

So, on the last post we left off at when Emily came in. Let's continue from there....

Emily: Riley! Are you okay? Riley!

Me: Ouch! Emily!

Amanda: I just wanted her to show me the routine!

Emily: Well, she knows it. I know she knows it! It's okay, Riley.

Amanda: I didn't excpect this to happen. (Probably in her mind, and I'm glad it did though)

Emily: Well, you don't need proof that she knows it. She knows it.

Amanda: I didn't know. For a while she's been dancing off and behind. I wanted to see if she knew it well enough.

Emily: Well, Amanda, she does okay.

Amanda: I know that now. But seriously, why'd she break out like that?

Emily: Umm?? I don't know.

Amanda: Come on, Emily. Why did she break out like that?

Emily: She got hurt a while ago. She can't dance like this.

Amanda: I thought so. Well, is she okay? (Her being nice, totally an act)

Emily: I don't know! I knew that it was bad, but I thought by now she'd be good enough to dance.

Me: Em, it really hurts. (Now I was crying)

Emily: I know. It's okay Riley. I've got you.

Amanda: What do we do!? (Still an act)

Emily: I don't know. Riley, are you okay?

I shook my head no. Emily grabbed on to me and Amanda left.

Emily: Amanda! She's not okay!

Me: Em, it's.... Amanda. She... wouldn't stay even for this cause.

Amanda came in with ice.

Amanda: Will this help?

Emily: It's not a bruise but maybe.

Amanda placed the ice on my leg. Emily hugged me.

Me: Ouch! It's cold!

Amanda: Maybe we need something warm.

Amanda left for about five minutes then returned with a warm cloth. She placed it on my leg. (Good acting but so rude)

Emily: Are you alright, Riley?

Me: I'm fine... it just hurts still.

Emily: Can you walk on it?

Me: It feels a little bit better. Maybe.

Emily helped me up. I tried walking on it. I could do it, but it was a little bit off.

Me: Yeah, I can do it.

Emily: Amanda, please don't tell Miss Kate about this.

Amanda: Don't worry! I won't, I promise!

I was surprised to hear Amanda say that she wont, and it sounded meaningful.

Emily: I'm taking Riley home. Thanks..??

Amanda: Any time. (odd suspicious voice. But am I surprised?)

Emily and I left and who knows where Amanda went.

That concludes Just As I Thought parts 1 and 2.

Just As I Thought Part 1

Okay, so I just was at Culture Shock waiting until rehearsals which I thought were now but they're at 6:00. I was wating there when Amanda came to me. "Riley, you know rehearsals aren't until 6, right?" She asked. "Ohh? I didn't know. Then why are you here if they don't start till 6?" I asked. "I'm just talking Nationals over with Miss Kate." She told me. "Oh?" I paused for a few seconds. 'Well, I'll just go back home until then you know because I dont-" I said as Amanda cut me off. "No. Stay. I need to talk to you about something..." Amanda said suspiciously. "Umm... okay?" I said sitting down. Okay, pause. This must be getting confusing. I'll do what I always do with conversations!

Amanda: Riley, so in dance rehearsals, I've been noticing something... weird.

Riley/Me: Umm?? What's that?

Amanda: You.

Me: What?

Amanda: Your dancing. It's off. Do you know the routine well enough to keep up?

Me: Yeah, umm sorry. That was one time.

Amanda: No. I've noticed it for the past like... 3 dance rehearsals.

Me: Look, Amanda. You don't understand. I know the routine. I have it off my back.

Amanda: Then show me.

Me: I'm sorry what?

Amanda: Kate just left. The studio is open. Show me that you know it.

Me: Ummm??

Amanda: Riley, do you want to keep dancing in A-Troupe or not?

Me: Yes.

So, pleasent (not) surprise, I went to Studio A with Amanda. She looked me dead in the eyes. It kind of freaked me out. She played the music to the Nationals routine.

Amanda: 5 6 7 8

The music began playing and I began dancing. I was doing well and I was shocked. Once I felt the leg pain come back I stopped.

Me: See, I know it. Can I leave?

Amanda: Riley! Keep going. I need 100% proof.

I kept dancing and then finally it came. I began dancing weakly and painfully. I could barely hold it in much longer.

Me: Ouch, ouch, ouch!!!

Amanda: What's the matter? (sarcastically)

Me: Um, I landed a bit weird on that part.

Amanda: Then keep going.

I kept on going and it was so painful. It was hurting so badly. I could barely do it anymore. Amanda was going to literally break my leg if I kept dancing. And something tells me she knew it. And finally I broke to the ground.

Me: Ouch! (I grabbed on to my leg and was shaking)

Amanda: Umm? Riley? Keep going.

Me: I-I can't. (I was shaking and I was terrified to move. It was so painful)

Amanda: Why?

Me: Because it hurts t-too m-much. (Now I was almost crying at this point)

Amanda: Are you okay? (I could tell she was scared, but happy her stupid plan was working)

Me: No! It hurts t-too much!

Emily came into the room. And what is Emily going to do?

THAT WAS PART 1 TO JUST AS I THOUGHT

Episodes 5-14

So, as you all know that in Season 2 was the "big break up." Well, yeah. So, all of the episodes are Season 2 episode 5-14. Yeah, and were going to go further to 15. Well, then after that it's going to be 0 but.... still! It all still happened so it's all true. Just 100% sure is 5-14. Episodes 5-14 were hard to go through. Also, it was 10 episodes. Every episode says 1 week. 10 WEEKS I had to go through that! 10! And this week 11! ELEVEN WEEKS I HAD TO GO THROUGH THAT! Yeah, so not cool. Well, James said he's going to fight for me, but I'm giving this time. I need more proof, then better things will happen....

It Will Never Happen, Will It?

Okay, sometimes I sit and wonder, will anyone find out about my leg? Well, of course besides the people who already know. What I'm worried about is if someone who I don't trust finds out and brings it to Miss Kate. Well, you must be wondering. Who do I not trust? Well lets see, everyone in the studio likes me or is okay with me except one person. Hint: She is dance captain at Elite and The Next Step, her name begins with A and ends with A and the middle letters are mand. Who do you think it is? Obviously Amanda. If she sees me dancing badly or overhears any conversations, I'm toast! She'd bring it to Miss Kate for sure. Just another way for her to tear apart the team, I bet. Hopefully, she doesnt. I'll try my very best to keep it to myself.

What A Hit!

So, my channel is becoming a huge hit, as well as my videos. Aparently my video The Next Step: Riley's Story Of Life is a sad and perfect story, comment by a girl. Also, my episodes have like 400-500 views and I have 25 subscribers. Other people are shocked that it's really me! This is pretty cool to be such a hit. Also, I truly hate how in TV they call Game On new. IT'S NOT NEW, HELLO! They put it as new episode. Though, tomorrow night they're playing The Next Step Encore Presentation. That's a lot of episodes from Season 2 then I recap the season (again). This will be the 3rd time I recap a season. I bet I'm recaping all of the seasons. Unless I get kicked from the main cast which in that case... probably not. But, I know that I'm not being kicked. It'd ruin the show. Just like Michelle leaving has already ruined the show a bit. But proof shows she comes back on that wikipedia that also says other things! Okay, creepy. I'm just saying it says that my life goes back... possibly. If I end up making up my mind. Remember, we'll see. Also, today my class was in library and I put my one leg over the other one (which was the hurt one) and hurt it badly! Well, I was just reminding everyone about what a hit I am!

These are my hit videos. Most popular-least order below.

1. Hazy Shade Of Winter Part 1/2 VIEWS: 521
2. Hazy Shade Of Winter 2/2 VIEWS: 475
3. The Next Step: Riley's Story Of Life VIEWS: 113
4. The Next Step: Riley's Channel VIEWS: 56

WHAT?!

Okay, so I was bored reading my wiki when I went to view the episode list and I was right! The episode, "Do You Love Me?" is my drama. YES! Well, not necessarily yes, but... okay YES! Also, Miss Kate ends up kicking Amanda off of the team! What a shocker! SWEET! I'm so excited. I'll give you the plots of those 2 episodes.

Do You Love Me? PLOT:

Riley questions James about their relationship. Okay, that's all it says but it's still something of mine!

Let's Just Be Myself PLOT:
After everything that happens, Emily tells the team why she was acting this way, Miss Kate kicks Amanda off the team. Michelle is now on the team again. Emily and Michelle become co-captains, because Emily decided to be herself now that the plans gone. 

Totally excited for what's coming. Do You Love me is Season 2.5 episode 2 and the 46th episode in total. Let's Just Be Myself is the 9th episode of Season 2.5 and the 53rd episode in total.

Sorry for the odd writing. CAN'T EDIT!

The Lonely Street Boy

So, at my break, Emily didn't sneak out. So, I was bored until I saw some boy from grade 9's other class or something sitting in the field in a ball alone. I first was thinking, "What's wrong with that maniac!?" but then I though, "If I were sad, would I want someone to be nice, or ignore me?" And I went to him. "You okay?" I asked. "Yeah, I'm just waiting for the bell to go," he said. "So... you're not sad because that's what I thought," I replied. "I'm fine. I just like to be alone sometimes." He said. "Same." I said and walked away. When I said same what I was meaning was same as in I like to be alone so leave me alone creepy street boy. No, that's cruel. I just meant I like being alone sometimes, too. Oh yeah, speaking of being mean, a girl in my class was planning her sleepover birthday and she said, "yeah it might not be a sleepover because.... well the house filled with girls." "Why are girls a problem?" Her friend asked. "Because they're dramatic and mean." I said and walked away. I looked back and saw the one girl who was planning the party sitting there offended of me saying she's dramatic and mean. (Though she should have used the dramatic part against me. We all know me drama, right?) Anyways, I'm not encouraging her being mean and using come backs on me. Also, Mareck and Simran in my class apparently have "feelings" for each other. Wait, you don't need to know that do you? Nope.... I'm assuming not. Anyways... so I have to go and read my wiki to find more disturbing things about myself (even though I know everything about myself, I need to read it over one more time to finalize it).

Rehearsals And More

Okay, after school we had rehearsals and I didn't do well. I ended up going. Kate wasn't watching rehearsals so that's good. Amanda is the dance captain and she kept on yelling, "Riley, keep up!" Well, I wish I could yell to her face, "I CAN'T!" If Emily were still dance captain, none of this nonsense would be going on. I'd be perfectly fine to dance how I have to. It just hurts when she yells at me and she doesn't even know my situation. I can't dance, Amanda! It's kind of upsetting but.... I'll live. I'm a strong person enough to keep a lie or a secret to myself so, I'm strong enough to have Amanda yell at me. Soon enough, I'll be back on my feet normally and I'll dance and Amanda wont have the chance to yell at me because I'll be doing fine. Some day, the truth will come out. I have to work to make that day before Nationals.... or else were doomed.

So Far...

Okay, so today at 10:20 we had break and Emily snuck out of class and came outside with me. We were yacking about our drama. I also talked to her about my issue with my leg that really hurt. Well, I seriously have nothing else to say. Until next dance rehearsal... bon voyage viewers...

Thalia

Thalia comes to audition for A-Troupe to go to Nationals and her awesome skills help her stand out against the competition. Because she is a dedicated, hard-worker, she has already been to Nationals and her unique experience could help the team make it there again.

Giselle

After losing her position in A-Troupe, Giselle learned that she had to give it her all to get back on the top. Her dedication payed off when a spot in A-Troupe opened and she danced her way back in to Regionals.

Chloe

Chloe put her position on A-Troupe at risk because she had to work a part-time job to dance at The Next Step. After getting help from her team, Chloe realized that being honest with your friends makes life easier. Now feeling more sure of herself, Chloe is willing to do whatever it takes to dance at The Next Step.

West

West is an awesome self taught hip hop dancer who joined The Next Step studio to learn different dance styles. After proving himself to the team at Regionals, West has earned the trust of A-Troupe and especially his boys, Eldon and James.

Amanda

As the captain at rival studio, Elite, Amanda's dance skills and experience makes her real competition. After The Next Step studio claims victory over Elite at Regionals, Amanda auditions for A-Troupe hoping to tear the team apart before Nationals so The Next Step can lose. While Emily is suspicious of Amanda, Miss Kate and Michelle thought she deserved a second chance.

Eldon

Eldon thinks he is easily the best dancer in the studio, but is not always quickest to think on his feet. He often relies on his best friends James and West to turn him in the right direction. After a long crush on Emily, Eldon realized he had feelings for Michelle while Emily still liked him creating a love triangle. He used to be dating Michelle.

James

James is relaxed, cool, and always up to hanging out with his friends. Sometimes too laid-back, James almost missed out on Regionals because he was failing math. With my help, he was able to boost up his marks and help bring the team to victory.

Emily

Emily is my older sister who dances at The Next Step studio with me. And after Emily's return from Elite, she was ready to share the co-captaincy with Michelle. Together, Emily and Michelle led The Next Step team to victory at Regionals. Even though she's proven her loyalty to A-Troupe, Emily can still sometimes forget what's best for her and what's best for the team.

My Friends

So, my next posts are going to be based on my friends from the studio, even the ones who left and the ones I don't really like (Amanda). Well, next post I will begin!

Remember When....

Well, lately I've been down. I really want to talk to James about everything that's happened lately. I mean, we haven't spoken since Friday. Well, were not fighting because during rehearsals he waved at me and smiled and I smiled and waved back. We both know that we still like each other and were going to get back together one day. Remember, "we'll see..." Okay, I just made this a bit awkward. Well, I just wanted to share everything in my life and some memories.

I remember when I was dancing at age 11 and I had a solo performance at my old studio. I look happy there, right? Performing nicely? Well, at the end I ran off stage because I almost threw up. No surprise, I threw up right after I ran backstage.

I think I already shared this but that was my dance photo of the year 2003. I was 4 years old. I was a good dancer but those gloves are huge on me.

Rehearsals Results

So, 5 minutes ago, I returned from dance rehearsals. It resulted... okay. Well, let's begin with some feedback. So, someone new found out about my leg. Let me tell the story...

I was just packing up to go after Miss Kate dismissed us when Thalis came to me. "Riley, can I talk to you for a second?" She asked. I was confused, "uhh.... sure," I said. "What happened?" She asked straight out and I could tell she was a little bit mad. "What... do you mean?" I asked her. "Your leg. Your dancing weird. I know your a good dancer and that isn't normal, Riley. Tell me. What happened?" She said. "Alright, I hurt it a few days... like 5 days ago doing acro stretches with Phoebe. I didn't want to let the team down by telling. Please don't tell anyone!" I pleaded to Thalia. She looked around to see if anyone was listening. "Okay, fine. But the truth always comes out one way or another..." she said walking away. She kind of questioned me on telling her. What does she mean as in one way or another? On the walk back, I told Emily that Thalia found out. She appologized. I'm glad Emily is trying to help me keep my secret. But I still have to find out what Thalia means. Well, I guess I'm going to find out one way or another...

Rehearsals?

Okay, so rehearsals are in 15 minutes and I think I'm going to go. Emily says it would be good for me to join another part of the only people that like her. I've decided because I don't want to be the dancer who never attends rehearsals. So, I've decided I'm going. It might not be the best idea because of my leg but I'm going to live, right? It's not like anyone is going to find out today. I'm just scared they're going to find out. Though, I'm layering myself with socks. After this post, I'm getting ready to go. I only have to be there by 6:05 so I'm good. I just hope and pray to God that nobody finds out at least until it's a little bit better. Besides, I don't think this is a day that anyone (besides Amanda) wants to be picking on me because of what happened when I auditioned for the solo and that's the last time anyone saw me. So, I'm attending today's rehearsal so, lucky me! Well, I have to go and prepare for rehearsals. So... wish me good luck!

Taco Night!

I'm pretty bored right now. I am just saying, Emily and I are having tacos tonight. Yipee! Well, boring right? Okay, I'll find something to post about in about 30-40 minutes because that's when I should go to dance. I'll tell you if I'm going.

Scariest Thing On The Planet!!

So, I was taking a quiz because I was kinda bored when I was taking one quiz and it showed a face of a 20 year old woman, regular face, and it was normal. It said, "Touch right beside my eyes with your hands, don't be afraid, no one can see you." At first I was kind of scared. Then it said, "Listen to me! You didn't touch me! Let's try again, Riley" I had to insert my name. Anyways, creepy how it sensed I didn't touch it. Then, I finally touched it and it's eyes turned a creepy light blue and I backed away quickly. Above the face it had a question mark. "Hmm?" It said. "15 1/4." It said reading what age it thought I was. Then I stopped doing the quiz because I had to touch another face. What if it popped out at me? I showed Emily. I asked her to do a quiz with me. She came and I told her to put her hand on the woman's eyes. She did and when it went blue she screamed and backed up and it sensed she was 8 1/3. Ha! Emily is 8 years old. Funny, huh? Well, that was the creepy quiz talk.

Stay Or Go?

I'm unsure if I should stay at home today or go to rehearsals. A-Troupe has rehearsals at 6:00-7:30. I don't know if I should go because my leg isn't any better then yesterday and I don't want to make anyone suspicious of me letting the team down. Also, I want to go and I should because I want to prove I'm worthy of A-Troupe enough to go to a rehearsals. Nationals are right around the corner and I need to rehearse. One thing I forgot about last night is that Emily told me they added a few new steps to the routine and she showed me them and I tried to kind of learn them slowly and making sure I'm okay. That's how I can rehearse. I can do it slowly and weakly. Maybe I'll go to rehearsals later, maybe I wont. But no matter what, I'm not letting my team down.

Walk Home

So, walking home from school was okay. I was with Emily. Her and I were discussing everything with the plan to get Amanda out of the studio. I know Emily is upset and is trying to hide her feelings towards everything like I did towards James. Its sad to see my sister like this and knowing this isn't even her fault breaks me. They have no reason to hate on Emily because she's doing this for our team and she's doing it all for them, not her, the team! It does make me kind of mad that they hate her because this isn't her fault. This is Amanda's fault. Well, I'll discuss this more later.

Blink Contest

So, a girl in my class named Sydney challenged me to go a full 35 minutes of social not blinking. I only blinked once in the beginning. Once the bell rang, I screamed, "I'M FREE OF OPEN EYES!" and I ran out. I cam back in and said, "I need my lunch" and everyone was laughing at me. Emily came to me and said, "Your free of what, Riley?" "Oh, Sydney challenged me to go a full class without blinking once." I explained. "Interesting?" Emily said awkwardly. I sat with Emily and all of my grade 9 friends at lunch and one of them gave me a Wagon Wheel. Great! Emily normally would be sitting with her friends but ones like Chloe and Eldon who attend our school, don't like her anymore. I even saw Chloe look at Emily having fun with me and my friends and I'm guessing she was thinking, "Why is Emily having fun and being nice? Why is Riley accepting her apology? And why is Emily playing with 9th graders?" Is probably what was running through Chloe's mind. Well, I went 35 minutes without blinking. Now, I'm probably going to be challenged again. So, wish me good luck in not blinking or something!

22 Subscribers

Okay, so as you all know I had 20 subscribers this morning. I gained 2 more this afternoon and I am surprised that my video The Next Step: Riley's Story Of Life already has 20 views in 19 hours. It probably is going to be popular. Though, not as popular as my episode parts. Well, I just wanted to remind you all that I have 22 subscribers.

Break With Emily

So, this morning at 10:20 the grade 8 and 9 got to go on a break outside like we do everyday. So, the grade 10's in Emily's class were going outside too for gym. Emily was there. Emily said the first 15 minutes of her gym class is free time so she can talk to me during that. She said once the grade 8 and 9 bell rings then they have to go and do their regular gym class. We talked about everything and she told me some things that happened in the rehearsal I didn't go to. "The only thing anyone said to me is where is your sister," she explained. "What did you say back?" I asked her. "I just said sick. Your not sick right?" She asked me. "No. I'm not sick I told her. "Only Hunter was nice to me. Nobody else really spoke to me. Only James and Kate asked where you were." She explained. I felt really bad. She and I both know that we have to do this for the team because Amanda is going to ditch us at Nationals and we'll have no dance captain, no female soloist and we won't be able to perform because we will have 9 dancers instead of 10. Also, on the walk to school, Emily explained a little bit of rehearsals. At my break, Emily knows and I know that she has it bad and she was considerate of letting me talk about the good in my life. I tried to seem cool about everything going on between James and I and you know. I just tried to seem like it was no big deal because I didn't want to make Emily feel bad about what's going on with her.

I Missed Out

Okay, so at 8:00 til 9:30 A-Troupe had rehearsals. I didn't show up and neither did Emily. I guess this was apart of our plan for the Amanda thing. I also didn't show because I hurt my leg. My mom got a call from Kate because Kate thought it was odd because Emily and I live in the same household and none of us showed up. My mom asked why none of us were there. I told my mom that I didn't feel good and Emily told her about everything with dance captain and Amanda and that's what our mom told Kate. So, the rehearsals carried on without me and Emily. In the ending like at 9:10 or something Emily went to rehearsals. She told me that she needs to be there to work out more of the plan. So, she left. After rehearsals she came back at around 9:45 when I was laying in my bed writing in my notebook. She came in and said everyone asked where I was and that's all they said to her. "I'm sorry, Em." I said. "It's okay Riley. This was the plan all along." She told me and walked into her room. I put my notebook on my dresser and I layed down and thought of everything...

Only Going Up!

Guess what? You all know how yesterday I had 17 subscribers right? Now I have 20! Surprisingly, Taylor Smith is one of them. Shocker. Well, I'm so happy to have moved up subscribers. By this afternoon, I'm going to have like 23 or something subscribers. Soon, I'll be a hit! This is great! Well, I have to post about something else now because it's 8:21. Bye!

The Next Step: Riley's Story Of Life

So, there is a YouTube video that is called The Next Step: Riley's Story Of Life and it has my song on it. Why? Because I created the video myself. It's my life path from beginning to well now.

This is the video, The Next Step: Riley's Story Of Life. Please watch the video and enjoy it. Also, if I know you these rules apply to you:

PLEASE DO NOT LISTEN TO THE SONG. IF YOU REALLY WANT TO WATCH, MUTE IT.

Never Again

I am 100% done doing acro. Seriously, my leg is in more pain then I was when Beth and James kissed. Okay, maybe not quite but it really hurts. It's been hurting for almost a week and I don't want to walk on it. I definently can't dance. Maybe there is a reason that I didn't get the solo, because it would hurt me. Nationals is right around the corner and I don't know what I'm going to do. I wish I could just dance and at the very least walk without a pain in my leg. I tried walking on it at around 7:00 and it didn't go too well. It hurt me really badly. What if next dance rehearsal Phoebe has us do acro sctretches let alone dancing. Nobody but West and Emily know and I don't expect Emily to show up next rehearsal but Phoebe or Kate or anyone else doesn't know. How would I do the acro? I couldn't! It would be impossible even if I attempted it. I'd either not be able to do it or I'd snap my leg in half. I don't know what I'm going to do about it. Acro is definently one of my weeknesses. I don't know what I should do. I have 2 options. I either tell Miss Kate about it and then I don't have to dance until I'm better, or I try my best to dance and not tell Miss Kate because I don't want to let my team down. I think I'm going to not tell Kate as long as possible that way I'd be letting our team down for a shorter period of time. I'll have to deal with the dance moves and the acro until I can't do it at all anymore. Well, I don't think I can do it, but I probably should try. I'm going to rest on it tonight. Then, tomorrow when I have dance I can see if I can do the moves and the stretches.

We'll See?

Okay, so in Game On I said to James about our relationship that we'll see. And I'm pretty sure we'll see soon. I really want to get back with him and him telling me he'll fight for me is all I've wanted to hear. And I heard it. Its amazing that it's finally going back to normal. I just need to be the one to make it happen. James is obviously too afraid. I'm still shocked with Michelle and Amanda. What the heck? Well, I have to go and plot out things with Emily. Bye!

Game On

So, I just finished watching Game On with Emily and it only made her feel worse. I tried to tell her it made me feel bad too when really, it made me feel good. So, I'll explain it:

In the beginning of the episode, Michelle leaves the studio and then Kate tells everyone. After that, Emily and I find out that Amanda is still at Elite and plot a plan to get her out. Our plan was for me to mess up on my solo audition so Emily can get mad at me and then fakely join Amanda's plan to defeat The Next Step and find out her plan and stop it from happening. The plan might end up working. I don't know. It was much harder then I thought it would be. Just seeing it all happen really was harder then Emily or I expected. Meanwhile, I was practicing my solo against Amanda when James came to watch. I let him stay when he said I was perfect and then said, "I mean the solo." Later on, I went to James as he was pulling off flips for his friends. I went and was talking to him because I felt bad for making him leave while I auditioned. I just wanted to make sure I didn't hurt his feelings. Deep down, he knew I wanted him back so he ran over to me. He told me he's going to get me back. I told him it was too late. He told me he was going to fight for me. I told him we'll see when I was basically saying yes. He knew it too. I can tell. I walked away smiling. Then, a part of me and Emily's plan with Amanda came up. Emily joined Amanda's plan fakely.

Game On: Just Play Already!

I am kind of upset right now. Not about the regular James stuff, but about the fact that at 4:30 they're playing Game On and Melissa MJK has uploaded some of my scenes from it and I want to watch them but I don't want to ruin the episode! One of them is the one of Amanda stealing my solo, When The War Is Over to put me off my game for rehearsals and another is James talking to me about my solo after I rehearse and the last one is James telling me he's going to fight for me. That's all I know about it. I'm truly dying to watch it but I need to try and find a way t keep myself occupied until the episode is on in about a half hour. Good thing is that soon Melissa MJK is uploading my solo audition BEFORE the episode.

A Frightful Shame

So, Saturday morning, I woke up and realized my leg from acro had gotten a lot worse. It really hurt. I was terrified to even get up out of bed that morning. Once I got up, I could walk but it really hurt to move regular paced. Once I began moving slowly, it felt better than walking normal would. I went for a walk to see if walking more would help take the pain away. On the path, I met up with West. Him and I began walking together and talking about dance and drama and stuff like that. He finally realized I was walking weirdly and said, "Umm.... Riley? Why are you walking like that?" I just kept walking with a weird look on my face. "Like what?" I asked guiltly. "Like limping or something. Are you ok?" West asked. "Um... yeah. Just great." I replied and also lied. He just looked at me knowing I was lying. "Alright fine. Doing acro on Thursday or Wednesday or something, I hurt my leg really bad and only Emily and I know." I explained. "Why didn't you tell me or anyone else?" He asked me. "Because, I didn't want to maybe let the team down. Especially after Michelle leaving and... nevermind," I explained. I was about to say the Amanda at Elite thing but I decided not to. "Are you ok though? I don't care about the team. I just want to know if your ok?" He asked. He was concerned for me. I can tell it was just because of Nationals right around the corner though. "Yeah, I'm cool. Well, I better get going. Bye West!" I said taking off the other way. "Bye! And hey Riley, just remember, don't even worry about it!" West called back. I know he got that from James and it kind of haunted me. He was trying to mock me over my break up with James. I said to myself quietly because West was too far away and I guess the message wasn't for him. I said, "Don't worry. I won't worry..." and I almost said James. But I didn't. I paused before I could say James. Now, West and Emily both know my little leg acro secret thing. Hopefully, Kate doesn't find out. And Emily no longer being dance captain, she can't do much about it anymore and neither can West. Amanda being dance captain, I can't trust her because she's at Elite too. It seems to be that one day my leg feels great and then the next day I'm almost crying of the pain. How does all of this insanity happen? Insanity is just the beginning. Who knows? What if even more comes up with dance?

Playlist Songs

Okay, I have some new songs and I want to share all of the songs from my playlist.

Song 1: Drive by Train

Song 2: Breathing by Ilse De Lange

Song 3: Say Something by Christina Aguilera and Great Big World

Song 4: Everyday by MariLou

Song 5: When The War Is Over by The Next Step/Riley's Solo Song

Song 6: Don't Stay Low by Allie Gonino

Song 7: Every Time by Britney Spears

Okay, 1 new song but still!

17 Subscribers!!

Guess what? I have 17 subscribers for my episode! Yes! And also, I know in Game On to James I say we'll see about giving him another chance, but don't over-react. I'm not. Well, I'm so happy to have 17 subscribers and 251 video views. Thanks to Taylor Smith. She really made my day. She said I can keep my episodes up. This is a great honor to have 17 subscribers. At 5:00 I promise I'll make a post about Game On and everything that happened. And P.S., I know Amanda is at Elite! Emily and I decided to plot her out. Okay, what am I saying? At 5:00 is when I'm writing about Game On. Okay, bye!!

-Riley, :) (SO HAPPY FOR NO REASON!)

8 Subscribers OverNight!

Guess what? I got 8 more subscribers over night because of my episode of The Next Step I uploaded from a nice girl who allowed me to. Her name is Taylor Smith and I thank her for allowing her video to be remixed. I thank her because she earned me 8 subscribers. So, I'll try to upload more soon.

Room Wreckers

So, Emily and I went to the park in Langdon and everyone knew me as Riley the girl who is afraid of chickens. They all made chicken jokes. After, we went back to my house. I had the boys change in my room, girls in Emily's. I heard crashing and glass breaking in my room. I went in and the boys were breaking my bed and my stuff. I sent them out and James tried to hug me. As much as I wanted to hug him back, I couldn't. I pushed him and sent him out. I'm getting unsure of being with James. I really want to, is it a good idea though? I don't know if I can. I really do want to be with him, but I just can't give into him after he kissed Beth that easily. He needs to get that what he did was wrong and he shouldn't be forgiven that fast for it. I'm going to have to tell him sooner or later. Maybe before he leaves my house I'll be ready to let him go. He needs to understand that kissing Beth was wrong and it really hurt me so much to not forgive him so easily. I'm not going to become like that so easily. That just isn't happening. Tonight, I'll at least try to talk to him about it. Before he leaves my house. James needs to get it straight that I'm not going to forgive him for kissing another girl while in a relationship with me. It hurts me so bad because I thought he loved me. I thought I was the only one. I know I need to give this more thinking on if I should forgive him for this because this really hurt my feelings more than anything ever has.

This is what he did while being with me. It really hurts. I thought he loved me and he kisses her. He isn't even trying to back out of it! :(

He caused me to dance the darkest dance anyone in The Next Step studio has ever danced and he caused me to cry like that. Look at what James did to me? Is that forgivable in almost a month? I don't think so. Even looking at this makes me want to cry so hard. That's what he did. It's unforgivable.

I'll Fight For Myself

I just realized that I have my own fights and I need to learn how to protect, care, and fight for myself. It's my only chance to help the team get to Nationals. I need to pick myself up off of the ground and go on. I'm going to fight for myself for the team. I used to have James to fight for me, now I have to be the one to fight for myself and give myself confidence. You know, kind of take James' place for a while until things can get sorted out between us. I'm not going to lye around anymore in pain waiting for someone to fight for me, I'm going to fight for myself for my team. Nationals are right around the corner and I need to focus on helping the team get to Nationals. I used to have James to fight for me, but now, I need to take that place and fight for myself and make sure I can make it my best to Nationals. I don't want any pressure on me for Nationals. I need to fight for myself, pick myself up and go on.

Hazy Shade Of Winter by Riley!

Guess what? On YouTube, I uploaded part 1 and 2 of Hazy Shade of Winter! It's going to be a hit! It's the latest episode before Game On. Here are my episode parts:

This is Hazy Shade of Winter part 1/2

This is Hazy Shade of Winter part 2/2.

Hurting More Today

This morning, I woke up and my leg hurt so bad! I tried to walk on it but I could barely without limping. Later on that day, I could walk a little bit normal. At lunch, Emily came to me and sat with me. "How's your leg?" She asked me. "It hurts still but I'm getting better," when the truth is it isn't getting any better. If anything, it is worse. It really hurts to walk on and I've only told Emily. I can tell she is a little bit worried for me but now that I've lied to her and told her it was better, she isn't too worried for me anymore. It kind of hurts to walk on. Tomorrow, class has gym and I might have to sit out. At dance rehearsal today, what am I going to say? I don't know if I should tell Kate. But if I don't I'll have to dance on it and it will be obvious something happened because I can't really dance well like this. I'm pretty worried of what to do. I'm just going to try and dance on it and if I can't I'll think up plan B.

Total Miss Out!

You know the episode Game On I've been dying to see? Well, guess what? A-Troupe, B-Troupe, and J-Troupe are going on a trip for the weekend and I'll be missing out on Game On. I hate when I have things planned for the weekend and then my new episode ends up being on. You'd think I can watch it before I leave but I can't. Infact, on Friday I'm missing a 3 in a row marathon for my episodes including episodes Your The One That I Want, Hazy Shade Of Winter, Game On. And by the time I'm back from my the trip (which doesn't get TV) they will have stopped putting us on TV until Season 2.5 begins airing. I am going to miss Game On. My plot looks so interesting! I'm glad I can record it but I'll never get the chance to watch it after it's recorded. My mom and dad love that TV. Well, I am going to find a way to watch it no matter what. It's my destiny!

My Apparent Time Loss Issue!

Okay, so my blog is having a little bit of trouble. It's saying that when I post something example at 6:00 my blog tells it as 5:00. It tells it as an hour later. So, please be aware that it has wrong timing. It just works that way. I don't know why!

Risking Our Team Maybe?

Today during rehearsal at 3:45 til 7:30, Phoebe had us do some acro stretches which kind of put my legs in pain and then for the Nationals routine, I had to do some acro. I may have hurt my leg. I don't want to put the team at risk. It's not too bad and I hope it's going to heal itself in a few days. It feels pretty hurt but I'm sure it's nothing and whatever it is will be fine by Nationals. I can still dance pretty well. It's not affecting me too much. It just makes me fall behind a little bit. With Michelle choreographing, she doesn't mind me falling off line a little bit. I told Emily. I decided to tell her because I just want the dance captain to be aware. Here's mine and her conversation on it right after dance:

Me: Em, can I talk to you for a second.
Emily: Yeah sure, Riley. What is it?
Me: During acro, I think I hurt my leg a little bit.
Emily: Oh no! Riley, what happened?
Me: I don't know, I think I bent it too far.
Emily touched my leg to see if it was broken or something. Emily: Awe, Riley it's okay.
I began crying a little bit. It really hurt me at that very moment. Emily hugged me and told me I was okay.
Emily: Don't worry Riley, I promise you'll be okay. For sure by Nationals. If it get's worse, tell me okay?
Me: Okay, thanks Emily.
I stopped crying.

Emily and I both walked home together. She saw I was walking funny but I was fine still. It felt better than it looked. Hopefully, I don't let the team down. I don't want anyone to get upset because I'm unable to make it to Nationals. I'm going to try my best to rest it for a while.

My Dance Solos And Duets

This post, I'm going to show you every single duet or solo I've done before. Beginning with duets:

Duets:

That is me and James doing James and Beth's solo. I had to show her how to do the hip hop parts.

That's mine and James' old Nationals duet. We lost that duet. I mean, look at how much of a mess that is. Makes sense, right?

This is me dancing the duet on my own. Kind of odd right? Don't worry, eventually you begin to see my imaginary James. I still can't get past that. Well, whatever. Here it is.

Here is mine and James' auditions for the Nationals duet. We ended up getting it and then losing it. Well, skip to 0:23 seconds to see my duet.

Solos:

This is my solo When The War Is Over that I danced to let out my emotions. I cried at the end. I think it was the most powerful and emotional dance I've ever done.

This is my solo Where Did Everybody Go from Season 1. It wasn't one of those dances that effected and showed my emotions, it was just a good solo.

I have to admit that this was the oddest solo I've ever done. The music, the dance, it was all just a little bit off in it's own way.

Well, those were my solos and my duets. Please be sure to view them!

Total Proof!

I have 100% proof from the episode list that my plot is taking a turn in the right direction. No longer the Beth direction! Sweet! Well, maybe more like 80% proof but it's still good proof! So, I can tell because of episode titles. Okay, so the coming up episode titles are, Game On, I Wanna Tell The World, Do You Love Me?, and Diva. I will give my predictions on who I think the title is based on. Game On is Michelle's plot. I Wanna Tell The World I think might be Emily's. Do You Love Me is definitely going to be my plot. And Diva is for sure Emily's. Diva, Emily. TOTAL MATCH! I cannot wait for Season 2.5 episode 2! Also known as Season 2 episode 16 and 46th total episode. Totally time for Riley to return. Maybe Get It Done Girl decided to get it done again. I cannot wait. Wait.... no! It could be the Michelle-Hunter plot or the Emily-Hunter plot. Great?! Just great.... maybe not though! Who knows, we'll find out on whatever day the episode airs on. Hopefully, if everything there doesn't return, I'm main...?

Off Campus?

Okay, Chloe wants me to go off campus with her. Should I do it? Yes, in my episodes I've done it before but it was to help James with his math. Now, what do I have in it for me? Well, the time with James we did math then ended up dancing for his school which was fun. Well, now I have nothing. Emily did tell me to go off campus and pick something up for her so... maybe so. I'm still unsure. Well, I guess I'll decide tomorrow at lunch time when I have to tell my teacher I'm going off campus. Maybe I will. I just need some inspiration and I'm off! Let's leave this post off with some pictures.

There I am with James. Okay, why on earth am I doing this? Okay, goodbye blogger. I'll re-post later and see if anything interesting comes up!

I Don't Think So

This morning, I was walking to school all by myself when I heard a girl call out, "Riley! Riley!" And I looked and guess who I saw? No, not coconut breasts. I saw Beth. She came to me and was trying to get me to be her friend and forgive her. What is that all about? I said no because of what she did to me with kissing James. I mean, at that time, she knew her and I were in pretty thin ice and she took advantage of the fact that I wasn't around. Well guess what Beth? I was! I was there for the whole thing so ha. Not that she didn't already know that. Soon enough, she went to her school and I walked alone. Why on earth did Beth want to be my friend? Is it a trick or something? I don't know but whatever it is, I know something's not right. I know that with Beth this was probably a set up. And I for one am not falling for it.

Bigger Than Coconuts

So, there is this 7th grade girl in school named Isabella. All her friends call her Bella and her not friends call her Isabella. That's exactly why I call her Isabella. She is 2 years younger than me and has breasts the size of over-sized coconuts. Yeah, and she also has this habit of chewing on her tee shirt. It's gross. She's kind of mean. Well, Isabella is weird, gross, and mean at the same time. What would West call that? Wegrosmean? Well, this post was based on Isabelle- Our Coconut Breast girl.

Blob Thrower

I am playing a game called Blob Thrower. In Blob Thrower, you throw mini black blobs at yellow blobs to turn them into 1 whole blob. Blob Thrower's are very cute and adorable. Well, the game description says they're happy too. Here are the Blob Throwers.

Here are the mini black blobs attempting to mush them and the yellow ones into one whole blob. Kind of like conception.

That's the victory of the blob when the mush becomes one!

PLAY BLOB THROWER ON COOL MATH GAMES. BLOB THROWER: BROUGHT TO YOU BY RILEY!

Where Are We At?

After last night with Kate locking (yes actually locking the door) of her office and locked me and James in there until we got along. How is that fair? I had to stay in there screaming at James until we finally got along by showing up a photo of Kate's niece in a stop sign frame saying, 'Unstoppable' and everyone laughed. Then, we began looking on a map as a competition to see who can find a real name. I won. I know it. Okay, maybe he won, maybe I did. I'm not sure. Now, I don't know where were at. It's just like our first date! After.... stuff relationshipy happened, I was unsure if we were in a relationship or not. I'll do what I did then. I'll just pull him aside at dance and ask where were at.

My Song Playlist

I know I'm very upset right now, but I need to get over James and maybe tell you guys what songs are in my Playlist.

SONG 1: Drive by Train

SONG 2: Breathing by Ilse De Lange

SONG 3: Say Something by Christina Aguilera and Great Big World

SONG 4: Everyday by MariLou

SONG 5: When The War Is Over by The Next Step Dance Studio (Riley's dance solo)

SONG 6: Cold As You by Taylor Swift

SONG 7: Sad Serenade by Selena Gomez

Road To NOT Joy

Last night at dance rehearsal, it began with Phoebe making us stretch. She was making us do acro stretches which I got hurt from so I wasn't doing well. I didn't try. Then, after that Kate said she wants us to bond as friends not dancers so we played truth or dare (again). Everyone was daring people to do things and making people tell... the... truth? Okay then. I don't know what that was about. Anyway, Emily asked me truth or dare and I chose truth. She asked if I was 100% commited to my relationship with James. I kind of stalled because... no. I wasn't. I wasn't commited to it 100%. Finally, I lightly said no. James was mad. He looked at me like, "What?!" I appologized. That didn't seem to work. Then, it went silent. Everyone continued playing while James watched me write in my notebook with my polk-a-dot blue pen. He saw me hesitiating to write some thing than finally I wrote, "He assumes I broke up with him. He assumes right." So, he looked at me and said, "So you are breaking up with me?" I sat silent. "I don't know," I said quietly. When I said I wasn't 100% commited to the relationship, what I meant was we just got back from a huge fight. He was kissing Beth and I can't trust him yet. I meant to say in the future I'll trust him. I wish I said that. So after that I was silent as I continued to write. I stopped. I went through all my pages and looked madly and almost crying at one of my pages saying Jiley was for real. Everyone stared at me. Finally, I grabbed on to the page. Then, I tore it out! Everyone was shocked. I ripped it into pieces and sat there crying. Miss Kate saw what I did and called me into my office. She was talking to me asking questions. She hugged me and let me cry. She said dance rehearsal was over. I went out and collected the page that I accidently tore out and put it back in the book and I grabbed my bag and stormed out later followed by James who went the opposite direction of me. Soon, I arrived home and my mom said, "How was dance, Riley?" I just ran into my room crying. She came up and went inside my room and sat beside me. She hugged me. She got me to explain. I did kind of lied to her. I made my side seem a little bit more innocent than I was. I kind of mixed it in with the first break up, when he kissed Beth. She finally left when I calmed down a little bit. Because when I explained it to her, I was crying so hard. Then, later on Emily came inside of my room. I cried to her so hard. I told her how I felt about everything. When I fell asleep, she was still with me. When I woke up hours later at about 4am, she was gone. That was the worst night of my entire life. I miss James. I miss everything. This was my journey from Road To Joy to Road To NOT Joy.